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Realisation.

It's easy to notice when your mood is low just as it's easy to hear 10 things said about you and only remember the one bad thing and not the nine good things. When you're in a good mood it's all to easy to overlook it and forget about it as a good thing.

Sundays are usually a bad day for me as they are for lots of people. Even though I don't have the worries of work on Monday, I still find myself feeling very low, at odds with the worlds and generally depressed. It's a shame because I enjoy having Sunday dinner with my folks and I'm becoming middle-aged enough to enjoy settling down with Countryfile and a nice cup of tea. However sometimes that isn't enough to keep the head demons at bay. I've cut out reading the Sunday papers because they heighten my frustration with the world which seems to help.

When I came home yesterday and was lying in bed, I realised i was in a good mood. Sunday hadn't taken its usual toll on me. I thought it was important to remember that and take it as a positive step on the road to improved mental health. Today I even went to Asda to do a little shopping. This is something that often triggers my anxiety, not just because of the decision-making that shopping entails but the narrow aisles and large amount of people who get in my way. Today I managed it and didn't even think about it - something I would never have been able to do a few months ago. Again this is something I need to remember as a good thing and something I can draw upon next time I think 'you can do this'.

Plus as a bonus, I bought Avengers: Age of Ultron on blu-ray.

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zoefruitcake
Sep. 15th, 2015 12:13 pm (UTC)
I hope you have many more good days
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