Cynical Cyanide

"Vacant, with a hint of sadness. Like a drunk who's lost a bet."

30 June 1971
Chester, Cheshire, United Kingdom
Chateau Libido
External Services:
University of Hull - Hull England - East Riding of Yorkshire UK (1989 - 1992)
Unseen University - Ankh-Morpork England - Wiltshire UK (1989 - 2007)
Xavier Institute for Higher Learning - North Salem NY (1990 - 2007)
Miskatonic University - Arkham MA (2007 - 2009)
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"Why do writers write? Because it isn't there." - Thomas Berger

Well seeing as you made it, I guess I should say something clever informative and witty about myself. Ah shucks, there's no chance of that, so here's the mundane stuff. I often find myself screaming at the foibles of modern life and popular culture. It frustrates me so much that it's either post my thoughts here or shout them drunkenly from a park bench whilst clutching a brown paper bag full of white spirit. If you agree (or if you don't), read along and let me know. Oh, if you can't think of anything to write in your Bio or think of at least 100 things that interest you - don't even bother. "Hanging out with friends" is not a hobby, it's what you do whilst you engage in your hobby and "chilling out" means doing nothing and who's interested in hearing about you doing nothing?

I love to quote the late, great Bill Hicks and I wish I had a spoonful of his talent and insight. He may be gone for a few years now, but a lot of what he said is as relevant today as it was then. If some people can listen to what a 2000 year old carpenter had to say, then just over 10 years is nothing. If you can tell me where to draw the line between humourously ranting at the foibles of society and just plain being a grumpy old tosser, let me know as I think I am walking a tightrope here.

I'm pretty quiet in real life, but it's nice to have a cathartic place to vent steam. I've suffered from depression and still need to keep The Black Dog at bay but I'm in a positive place at the moment. I have a new home surrounded by all the stuff that was previously confined to boxes and a small bedroom and I have a good group of friends. However I think I need a place to channel my thoughts of frustration and anger at the world so that I don't do anything stupid again. I feel shy and uneasy with others on a one to one basis, but I do okay in a crowd as long as I can fade into the background (which isn't easy when you're 6' 7" like I am). While you're enjoying the party, I'll be the quiet loner in the bell tower with a gun and a pack of sandwiches. Enjoy the show.

I am a keen participant on the SFX magazine forum and have come to know some great people through the site and meet up with them regularly. A friendlier place on the internet is hard to find. I have my own home and love having people come and stay with me. I make a mean bacon sandwich - wanna come and pay me a visit?

Some of the stuff you see here (and some of the stuff you won't) sometimes gets published by the excellent Geek Planet Online.

If you are looking for some words of advice: If you're being chased by a police dog, try not to go through a tunnel, then on to a little seesaw, then jump through a hoop of fire. They're trained for that.

Oh and I also have a couple of communities: hero_machine and fiction_records, so check them out. Please?

Now, would anybody like a nice cup of tea?


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"to disagree with three fourths of the british public is one of the first requisites of sanity" - oscar wilde


"We are not wholly bad or good

Who live our lives under Milk Wood,

And Thou, I know, will be the first

To see our best side, not our worst"

- Dylan Thomas


"The world is like a ride in an amusement park and when you choose to go on it you think it's real, because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and around and around and it has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud. And it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question, is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, and they say, "Hey, don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because... this is just a ride."

Bill Hicks


"If you wish to bed a lady, you must first declare your love. If you wish to bed a peasant, you must first declare your wealth." Morningstar, David Gemmell

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"If you're not cynical, you're not paying attention." Noam Chomsky


"To me, the comic is the guy who says 'wait a minute' as the consensus forms...He's the antithesis of the mob mentality. The comic is a flame - like Shiva the Destroyer, toppling idols no matter what they are. He keeps cutting eveything back to the moment"

Bill Hicks, Love All the People.


Swords in hand at the bloody fields of history
We rend our blades through dogma and humility
Carve the future according to our will
Set worlds ablaze with our seething fire
Let you all acknowledge that we are here
As masters to rule this failing humanity
Our beings formed in rage and defiance
With strength to trample the weak and the foolish
And so we march with burning brands
Temples of flame on our path to glory

Imperium Tenebrarum, Frater Nihil

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